goodbye lindsey

i don't know where to begin. it has been the most shocking, devastating week.

i heard news last thursday afternoon that one of my dear, dear friends had suffered from a brain aneurysm that morning.

lindsey was 33, married to the most wonderful man and 9 months pregnant. her baby was due that weekend. after stepping out of the shower on thursday morning, she felt a strong pain in the back of her head. apparently, the pain grew and before her husband could get through to her doctor, she collapsed from a brain aneurysm. emergency services arrived at her house within minutes and the baby was delivered by emergency c-section.

our beautiful lindsey was gone and the world received a beautiful baby boy ... hudson.

after a rough start, hudson is thankfully healthy and, just, well, perfect.

my husband and i were able to fly into dallas on friday afternoon to visit lindsey, hold her hand and say goodbye. we also were blessed to meet her baby boy -- i wish she could have met him too ...

lindsey was officially pronounced dead on "good friday" morning, but her body was maintained alive on life support until all arrangements for organ donations could be made. by easter sunday, lindsey had given back life to at least 7 people in need of her healthy organs and tissue. her baby and her organ donation were a beautiful ending to an beautiful life.

she was such an amazing person. i feel so absolutely blessed to have known her, to have had her influence in my life, to have experienced her eternal optimism and smile.

i love you lindsey.

goodbye my dear friend ...

relaxed ... and a bit melancholy

so much to say ...

hawaii was amazing. i'm now in tucson with my mom. J is back in london.

i don't want to go back to london ... our flat was broken into while we were gone. we've lost a lot of random stuff and a few precious items ... more sentimental than valuable. more than anything, i've lost my sense of security and desire to go back to the city.

ugh.

don't have time or energy to give anymore details ... i'm just going to enjoy my time with my family. will update once i'm back in london -- bored, scared and counting down the days to get back to my real home.

laters.